One
day I was daydreaming about various topics as I often do and I came across this
idea of The Trap and how it relates to Mississippi. Now when thinking about The
Trap, I can’t rely on regular sources for a definition. Thus, I have to go to
unusual sources to really get an understanding of what I’m trying to explain. I
came across a particular definition on the Urban Dictionary that states, The
Trap is:
“A ghetto place that if you stay there too long you get trapped there. The people and circumstances bring you down. You make friends with someone they ask you for a ride to work. You get profiled and pulled over. Dude has drugs on him and sticks it in your glove box. Cops arrest both of you. Now you got a felony and can't get financial aid to go to college. You end up working at the local McDonald's. Now you trapped. Dude asks you for a ride to work because it's the trap and doesn't want to walk. You say no. He gets fired for being late. Now you got beef and get mugged by his homies. Now you scared to go outside so you don't get mugged again. So you stay in the house and it feels like you are trapped there. That's the trap house. A lot of times people end up selling drugs in the trap house. They fortify it with armed people making little safe places in an otherwise dangerous area.”
For
some reason, everything just clicked when I read that. If you take out all the
particulars, The Trap is just a cycle of unfortunate circumstances that keep
you in a state of mediocrity. Regardless of how much you try to change your
circumstances or how much you tell yourself that this feeling of being
restricted is a myth, it’s not hard to succumb to the trappings of your
environment. It’s easy to equate The Trap to this cycle of drugs and violence
because that’s what we have been taught. But it goes beyond that. You don’t need drugs
and violence to feel trapped. All you need is a lack of hope.
When
you are surrounded by mediocrity and the only thing that you notice are the
negative things that are around you, it’s not hard to fall into the trappings
of life. You feel like you’re trapped, even if you’re just trying to survive.
So, how does that relate to Mississippi? Well, it’s simple. In Mississippi, you
either survive or thrive in spite of and not because of. This state is full of
people who have overcome the impossible. Matter of fact, it is expected of you
to overcome the impossible if you are from here. And it is that particular
statement that I have a problem with. It is not normal to have to overcome
impossible tasks at every turn. Eventually society evolves and improves upon
the earlier issues that we have had. With every new day that arises, we are
faced with new problems. That’s why it is important to solve the problems of
yesterday so they won’t pile up on you. Advancements have been made in various
fields of study to correct the past and past errors.
But
it doesn’t feel like that when you have lived in Mississippi all your life. There
is a tradition of mediocrity here that shields the state from whole sale
changes. One time I was sitting in on a meeting while people were discussing
the effects of a rule that makes it hard for the workers to effectively do
their job. When asked why this rule was in place, the only answer anyone could
muster up was that “we always have done it this way.” There was no explanation
as to why the rule needed to be in place. It was just there because someone
decided that it should be there and it wasn’t going to get changed. That pretty
much sums up life in Mississippi for me. We only do things because that’s how we
have always done it. So how does that mindset stay relevant for so many years?
I honestly believe that it is due to not being exposed to better.
The
greatest trick Mississippi can pull on you is making you believe that there is
no better way and it shields you from knowing that better is even possible. So many
people prevent themselves from achieving greatness because they don’t even know
that better is possible for them. Motivational people always preach the
narrative of dreaming big. They want you to envision yourself as being more
than what you really are. But it’s hard seeing that far into your future when
you don’t even know what’s possible. Successful people sometimes take the steps
to success for granted by thinking that all it takes is hard work and
dedication. While it’s true that hard work and dedication increase the
probability of your goals coming to fruition, that doesn’t necessarily mean
that what worked for you will work for the next person. You may be enjoying the
fruits of your labor and trying to impart wisdom on the next person. But that
wisdom that you have may not make an imprint on the next person because they
are dealing with the hardships of their own life. That is what Mississippi does
to your psyche, especially if you didn’t have a good foundation in life. It
slowly drains all the energy out of you due to what you see on a daily basis
and everyone is not built to handle that.
Now
the basis of this piece is not to bash Mississippi, even though it’s impossible
not to make this state look bad when the title is “Mississippi Is the Trap.” I’m
writing this, more so, to ask a question. How do you help a person who has no
hope? I say that because I find myself slowly falling into the trap that
Mississippi has laid for me. I’m less optimistic about the future and what lies
ahead than I was when I was in college. I’m more irritated with the power structure
that is established for people to succeed. And most importantly, I’m losing
hope by the day. The most humbling thing that I can say at this time is that I’m
realizing that I believe less in myself than ever before.
I
was talking with my mom one day and we were discussing to prospect of me buying
a house. She was telling me how I need to step out on faith and believe that
the house will be paid for. While she was talking, the only thing I could think
about was everything I already have to pay for and the amount of debt buying a
home would put me in. I couldn’t force myself to believe her good words about
me or believe in myself that I can do what I’ve always done and that’s thrive
in spite of. I had to catch myself and think about how I got this way. After
sulking, I started to think about how people who really have no hope deal with
feeling helpless all the time. Better yet, how do we speak to people who really
feel that way?
I
honestly don’t know how to help a person who doesn’t believe that they can’t
help themselves. I’m currently at a point where I can question how I feel.
There is still self-accountability at play and I still believe that things can
turn out for the better. But a truly hopeless person is beyond your
motivational speeches and self-help techniques because their reality makes it
seem like your mouth is just spewing lies at them. Words have power, but just
imagine if most of the negative thoughts that you think come true. What will
you believe? Will you believe this random person telling you that everything is
going to be alright? Or will you believe that every bad thing that is happening
to you is your fault and there is no way that things can get better? I tend to
think that you will believe the latter.
Now
if a person truly believes the worst about themselves and everything that you
tell them is falling on death ears, are they worth leaving behind? Society
tells that you should leave them because you have done all that you can do. To
that I simply ask, how did those people become so worthless that they are that
easy to let go? I’ve already established that I don’t have the solution to
helping truly hopeless people. But I do know that leaving them behind does not
work. So what happens if I succumb to my fear and truly become hopeless? Will
it be that easy to leave me behind? I guess I won’t find out until it happens.